Childhood days;

Monday, September 25, 2006,:

I'm proud to say that though I'm having a hard time on something, my grades are getting higher! (especially in CAF) haha!!! maybe being sad is good for me... hehe.. anyway, i've told my cousin and my tita in the states that I'm in love with someone, though we're not together.. but lately, i've been feeling that he's drifting apart.. that he's distancing himself from me.. obviously, I'm hurt (who wouldn't?!).. they kept on saying that I'm better off without him.. there are lots of fishes in the OCEAN.. and that he is so stupid of letting go of me.. i kinda expected that they would say that.. they're FAMILY.. though i don't think they're obliged to say that.. they have a point though.. there ARE lots of fishes in the ocean, so why waste my time on one single fish?! I can be the best I could be without him.. and that he really is stupid.. he doesn't know that he let go of someone who loved him and is still loving him without any conditions.. well, like what they way, THAT'S LIFE.. full of ups and downs.. sometimes you're up, other times you're down.. but, this is lower than low.. i allowed myself to love him fully, regardless that i might get hurt in the end.. and I did.. now, it's hard to let go and move one..

until now, he hasn't spoken to me.. the only thing that could change the way i feel is when he tells me the TRUTH.. when he's HONEST.. i can tell if he is.. though its very risky.. whatever he might say MIGHT put me lower than where i am.. or lift me up higher.. all i can do is hope for the best, and gather up courage to stand up, and talk to him... ugh! i hope i can handle it...

words to live by...

""if you two are meant to be,"
someday you'll be together at the right time."

the girl

i am your bestfriend :)
a poet on the loose.
wanting a motorola U9 now.:))

the name's bianca. :) been living for 17 years now and a college frosh. currently in dlsu-m taking up bs ece :| a friend to all, an enemy to none. i am artsy in my own right. poems are my "thing". and i live by honesty. liars are off-limits here. got that? :)