Childhood days;

Monday, March 12, 2007,:

I should've done something way back. I should've said something when I had the chance. But why didn't I? Why didn't I try to open my mouth to say something? Anything?! Maybe I knew right from the start that nothing would change... even if I had the guts to say something. Would things be any different? I wouldn't know. I'm just living life thinking of "what-could-have-been's".

Just one word might've changed my life. I would've been bubblier, happier, and more at ease. Am I sure with that? No, I'm not. I don't even know if life would've been harder if things weren't this way! How I wish I had the courage to let him know how I feel. But, it's too late now. Is it?

Scared. That's the perfect word! I was so scared to let him know that I was wrong.. wrong to even make that decision. But nothing could ever change that now. Yes, I admitted it, I realized it now. But, would it change anything?

10 months (and counting?), I've been like this for 10 months. I pity myself for even staying like this for that long! But it won't last. I will change... EVERYTHING will change. Now, I have the guts to move on with life and let go of it all.. But still, it doesn't change the fact that I still love him... :'(

I promised not to let go, I promised to hold on. I might still be doing that.. but secretly. I just wish he'd soon realize my worth. I just wish that he'd realize how much he let go the moment he let go of me! I just wish he still loves me... even if not in the same degree.... :'(

Labels: 10, letting go, love, months

words to live by...

""if you two are meant to be,"
someday you'll be together at the right time."

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the name's bianca. :) been living for 17 years now and a college frosh. currently in dlsu-m taking up bs ece :| a friend to all, an enemy to none. i am artsy in my own right. poems are my "thing". and i live by honesty. liars are off-limits here. got that? :)