Childhood days;

Monday, March 19, 2007,:

bat ganun? no matter how much i put the thought of letting go on my mind, the moment he re-enters in my life, it all comes crashing down....

we've been talking to each other since the past week. i know, this is what i've wanted for about 10 months na. i should be happy, right? pero bat ganun.. mas matindi ung kaba ko kesa sa happiness. there's a part of me telling that he has realized how much he loves me and that he wants to be with me... but... the other part of me is telling otherwise.. these thoughts of him courting some girl but got dumped that's why he's crawling right back to me can't be erased! parang kasi unbelievable na after 10, long months, babalik siya sakin ng ganun-ganun na lang...

is fate playing a game on me? the night a friend of mine becomes close to me, is the same night marty told me that he misses me... that he still loves me.. don't get me wrong.. i've stopped hoping. i would be hurting myself more if i still do.

i'm getting scared by the minute. i don't know what he wants from me. i don't know if he's planning on anything. all i know is that we're friends.. bestfriends.. PERIOD!

and if that time comes that he'll tell me that he wants me back,. what will i do? what should i do? honestly speaking, i don't have any idea. like what patrick said "di mawawala ung love mo para sa kanya..." and he's right.. kahit anong pilit kong kalimutan ung love ko para sa kanya., andun pa rin eh.. siguro male-lessen., siguro hindi.. pero, ewan ko.. i don't know what to do.. unless,... unless something happens..

one day, someday.. i'll face the truth.. whatever the truth may be....

Labels: babybear, complicated, truth

words to live by...

""if you two are meant to be,"
someday you'll be together at the right time."

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the name's bianca. :) been living for 17 years now and a college frosh. currently in dlsu-m taking up bs ece :| a friend to all, an enemy to none. i am artsy in my own right. poems are my "thing". and i live by honesty. liars are off-limits here. got that? :)