Dear lie...

I just want you to know that I hate him! I know now why he did that to me. I know why he left me hanging. I know everything!

I'm satisfied with it now.. being his best friend. yup! you read it right. I'm satisfied.ü is it so hard to believe? Maybe. But yes. I'm satisfied being his bestfriend. At least I'm his bestfriend, right? Rather than just "a friend". I don't feel bad anymore. Tears have been a stranger since then. Sadness was never a friend. And frown is just a word that I don't understand.

I've been smiling now.Ü I'm not the same old Bianca that you used to know. I'm not the Bianca who cries herself to sleep 'cause of regret. I don't punish myself by wondering what could have happened if it were still us. I'm not forcing myself to move on anymore. I've stopped pretending to be alright since I AM alright. I don't feel sorry for myself anymore.

You know, I can read his letters without feeling bad! I've stopped crying while reading those letters..ü sometimes, when we get the chance to talk to each other, we tease each other to other people, and it doesn't affect me! It just makes me smile thinking that I once had him.. and once, I called him mine...

I don't miss him as much as I used to. I still love him, though.

But you know what... none of those were true.. thanks for hurting me Lie.. I thought everything would be better with your help. But it made it even worse! I miss him more! I want to see him each and everyday! The only truth there is that I still love him.... If only I could teach my heart to follow my mind, everything would be okay...

Labels: broken, lie, love, truth

""if you two are meant to be,"
someday you'll be together at the right time."

i am your bestfriend :)
a poet on the loose.
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the name's bianca. :) been living for 17 years now and a college frosh. currently in dlsu-m taking up bs ece :| a friend to all, an enemy to none. i am artsy in my own right. poems are my "thing". and i live by honesty. liars are off-limits here. got that? :)

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