Monday, December 01, 2008,:
early in the morning,
strawberry eyes had to welcome me. :\ remember the guy i was pertaining to in my previous blog? well, see the thing is, i had to
set the record straight. seems like everything is
sooo wrong. and before things get out of hand, i
have to let him go. sadly, both of us didn't want to. it felt like it was sort of a
break up even though it wasn't. i was
supposed to avoid him and not text him. but he keeps on texting me! :'(
anyway, i had to go to Quezon Ave. to meet with my blockmate, Im. Our research paper is due on wednesday sooooo cram cram cram!! I live in the South and we're meeting somewhere in the North. So how in the world would I go there, right? Thank God for MRTs. :)) I left home around 8-ish, and rode a jeepney going to Pasay. when in Pasay, i rode off the jeepney and took the MRT. gaaawd, ang
layoooo pala ng Quezon Ave. :|
anyhooo, i texted my blockmate when i reached cubao. He gave me directions and things -- in short, i had to meet him in McDo. :)) when i saw him, he told me that we'll be meeting with another blockmate, J. Say hello to randomness and laughter.:))
since he was still at home, I decided that we should wait outside J's house na lang. since none of us knew where he lived, we had to call him pa. :)) When we found out na, Im realized that J lived somewhere around the corner lang. After minutes of patience and the like, we drove off to Burger King in Timog Ave. :)
Basically, we just ate there since after eating, the 3 of us decided to do our school things in J's house. :)) bastaaaa. can't narrate everything 'cause it'll take up too much space. :) thing is, we were supposed to finish
englres but couldn't, luckily, we almost did :) they, Im and J, played red alert why I youtube-d at the same time. :))
Im and I were supposed to go somewhere at 2pm though both of us lost track of time. :)) sooo, both of us were late for our thingies. :)) i was supposed to go to glorietta to meet with my
hs friends:
Alroze, Joshua and Marlon. hassle nga eh. haha. i forgot how far q.ave was. sooo, i got there at around 3:30pm
twilight was the movie we were going to watch. one of the cinemas there will show twilight at 3:40pm. sakto lang! haha. we sat somewhere in front 'cause that's the only place wherein unoccupied seats were found. i am kinda
disappointed with the movie.:| i
love the book better. lots of important stuff weren't added to the movie.:| the storyline was too
fast-paced.
Jasper was a bit
stony. any omg, doesn't anyone notice how fast edward and bella became an item?! the author had a little exposure in the movie, too. i think the only thing i liked about it is the
baseball scene. gotta love the song
supermassive black hole by the muse :)
overall, i'd give it
2 stars. one for my love of the book, the other for the
kilig factor that was ever present in the movie. :)
gtg guys, classes resume tomorrow. :|
Labels: bloggie, boybud, college, dlsu, escapades, friends, life, random, school
yup.. it's been awhile since i've blogged. :))
i miss you my bloggie!!anyhoo, time for the
updates!:- [used-to-be] boybud and i are okay now.. i think we've been okay since last february.. i can't
exactly recall how that happened.. all i know is we were chatting one evening, he was asking for an apology, i said we'll talk the next day, and frankly, we did. he was kind of looking for a time when we'll talk. and there, we've been talking ever since..
- i'm a
certified high school graduate! hehe.. i graduated last friday.. it's still isn't sinking into me, though.. i think when i start enrolling or even passing my requirements in LaSalle [future school!!!] is the time when reality will slap me right in the face.. :))
- my friends and i are planning on an out-of-town trip.. summer is here.. it's time for the BEACH!!! :D
well, that's all for now.. i'm kinda not in the mood for blogging, though i miss blogging.. so, yeah.. i'll change my layout first.. then i'll go back to blogging..:))
Labels: bloggie, boybud, change, college, friends, graduation
Saturday, September 08, 2007,:
i tried to talk to my boybud last thursday. i really wanted to talk to him. i was getting frustrated with the fact that someone in their class is flirting him. i don't know why. i just hate it everytime by bestfriend would tell me stories about the girl flirting with my boybud. it hurts. i admit. i hurts. so. bad.
right after lunch, my classmate (who knows him) told me to write him a note. so that everything would be said and done, so that no one would get hurt, she persuaded me to write him a not. and i did.
josh,
meet me in the canteen after dismissal... i just need to talk to you... if you don't come, i know what it means.....after our speech class, we were heading down the stairs. the moment i came near their classroom, i tried not to look inside the windows. unfortunately, one of their classmates were getting an OHP unit inside. there was a guy holdig up the door for his classmate. when i looked up, i saw him. looking at me. straight. in. the. eye.
after that, i got more nervous about the "dismissal" thing. i was scared. so, the moment our adviser told us that we were dismissed, my anxiety turned into hunger, so i decided to head straight to the canteen and eat. :)) i was getting nervous every minute. to relieve my nervousness, i told my friends, "if he doesn't come here by 5pm, we'll go home." i told them that at 4:30pm. they told me to make it 5:30pm, but i was persistent. if this was meant to be, by 5pm, he'll be there, that's what i thought.
since they [my friends] knew that he wouldn't talk to me if they were there, they left me. "look-out" daw sila. :)) 4:45pm, gawd! ang tagal. i decided to do my physics homework. but the minute i was answering it, a friend of ours [boybud and i] came and told me, "andiyan siya." i told him to let him in. without hesitation, he did. our friend had a plan, he told us that he'd just "buy something", but the truth is, he locked us up inside.
he panicked. i did, too. but i didn't show it unlike he did. i remained calm, though deep inside i wasn't. this was the first time i was with him ALONE in some place. for minutes, they didn't open it up. so when one of my classmates came, i asked her to open the gates for us.. and she did. then i started to speak..
ako: "o, alam ko namang gusto mo nang umalis eh.."
boybud: (not moving and just looking at me) "galit ka ba?"
a: "ano sa tingin mo?"
b: "hindi ko alam.... galit ka ba? =/"
a: "alam mong hindi ako galit sayo. ilang beses ko bang uuliting hindi ako galit sayo! alam mo, kahit gusto kong magalit, di ko kaya! ewan ko kung bat pilit mo kong iniiwasan....."after that, he just looked at me.. i.. never felt so at ease. i don't know why. he's the only person who could make me feel at ease no matter what.. gawd. i miss him so much!
last night, my bestfriend asked him "do you care for bianca?", he simply said "ya i do.. duh!" he cares for me. that's a fact. he said it himself. but why can't he talk to me? =/
Labels: anger, boybud, hurt, tears
Thursday, July 12, 2007,:
for almost two years, i thought i know why my boybud is avoiding me. un pala, mali akala ko. my friend, who happens to be his seatmate, asked him if that [my reason] was why he's avoiding me. he said 'no'. if not, then what is it? that's the only thing i know that might have started the gap!
right now, i'm confused. i more willing to talk to him now, since i'm getting curious of what his reason may be. ano kaya un? siguraduhin lang niyang valid reason niya. kung hindi, isa lang ibig sabihin nun.. he didn't value our friendship.Labels: boybud
"what you want doesn't necessarily mean that's what you need..."
natuloy ung plan namin ni janine kanina. i was hoping it wouldn't, 'cause again, i was nervous. as in kinakabahan ako! buti na lang ang daming lumapit sakin para magpatulong sa caf. nung closed na ung library, akala ko uuwi na kami, hindi pa pala.
pinilit ni janine si joshua na makipag-usap sakin. leading him to trapping himself inside the boys' cr. ewan! dun ako nainis eh. what's the point of running away from me? bakit, may kasalanan ka ba sakin?! galit ka ba sakin!? may nagawa ba akong masama sayo!? sana naman sabihin mo dba? kesa naman nagmumukha akong tanga dito!!!
naiiyak na ako nun, nung nakalabas na ng cr si joshua, ako naman ung pumasok! (pasensya na, nature has been calling me eh.. ^_^V) aun, dun na rin ako nagtago kasi napansin kong umiiwas siya. ung para bang napipilitan lang siyang magstay sa school. tas i kept on hearing janine telling him to say "hi!" or greet me a "happy birthday!" parang ang plastik naman nun kung ginawa niya un. kasi kung ginawa niya un, it'll only mean na ginawa niya un out of anger? or pity? or whatsoever! pilit eh! grrrr... ewan ko...
di ako galit sa kanya.. galit ako sa ginawa niya!
ganito ba talaga kalalabasan ng birthday ko?!Labels: anger, boybud, school
first monday ko sa school. phew! muntik nanaman ako ma-late! haha. buti na lang hindi.
aun, when i got off the car, i saw nikki agad. edi tinawag ko siya then sabay kami pumasok ng school. while walking papuntang gym, usap-usap lang kami. hehe. syempre, the usual. she asked me about pj din. ewan ko kung bakit. anyway, aun, we were hearing na magsstart na ung assembly. O.o edi nagmadali na ako! pagpasok ko sa gym, sinong nasa harap ko?! edi si "then-boybud-na-super-iwas-ang-drama-sakin" ever. haha! aun, edi nagulat ako. nag-excuse me pa nga ako eh. kasi ba naman, di ako makapunta sa section ko. harang siya eh! X(
medyo matagal-tagal din ung assembly. pinakilala lang sa students ung respective teachers namin for our subjects this SY.
we have 2 physics teachers for 2 different periods ever single day. o dba? haha. san ka pa? 40 min. each teacher. at ung 2 teachers na un, same subject, everyday namin makikita. i don't know why we have 2 teachers for physics, tulad lang ng last year. 2 teachers namin sa chem, si msMyrla and mrsAnnie. msMyrla more on lecture, while mrsAnnie more on computation. this year, i don't know why talaga. may assignment na nga uli kami eh X( well, surely, this will be a very interesting year.
sa statistics naman, ok lang. :) may mga natakot mag-recite (isama mo na ako dun) kasi baka maging "out"-standing student pag di nakasagot. eh kilala ako ng teacher, haha, aun, tinawag niya ako. buti naman at may nasagot ako. :)
algebra? parang ni-relive ko lang ung LSC days ko last summer. hehe. my review classes paid off! naalala ko lahat ng tinackle namin dun at na-apply ko naman sa class kanina! :)
cl/v [religion], was the most interesting class today. nag-meditate kami kanina. hehe. aun, our teacher took us back when we were in 1st year, 2nd year and when we were in our 3rd year. he told us to think about, or reminisce about the most unforgettable days on those 3 years. di ko naman alam na magre-recite after. aun, he asked us kung ano ung pinaka-memorable, since katabi lang ng armchair ko ung teachers table (literally!), narinig niya ako when i said "2nd year." aun tuloy, ako tuloy ung tinawag. haha. then i made kwento (waw! conyo tayo today ah. haha.) sabi ko "when we were in 2nd year, nakaaway ko ung bestfriend ko. eh that day was the battle of the brains for 3rd qtr. i got affected to the point na natalo ako sa contest >.< pero after the contest, dun naman kami nagkabati. hehe. 'cause he knew that i could win it but i lost." haii. miss ko na tuloy si boybud. haha.
haiii... i miss blogging. :( i miss my bloggie! naku, busy-busyhan nanaman ako. lalo na this year. senior na eh. ugh... we heard from ALOT of teachers that much is expected from us. ayan nanaman ang mga expectations! XD
before doing my hw, eto muna. last na. i got tagged eh. :( si jean kasi.. :P haha..
Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.
1) i HATE catsup.
- i never really liked it.
2) i seldom talk to myself.
- pag may naiisip ako, bigla na lang ako magsasalita. hehe.
3) i bury my head with pillows when i sleep.ü
4) i have a dozen (literally) pillows on my bed.
- not counted pa ung stuffed toys. (i have less than 5 naman)
5) (others say) i look more mature than my ate daw. :(
- patrick told me that its meant as a compliment when he told me this. eh pano naman ung ibang tao!?
6) i treat my stuffed toy pook as my baby.ü
- bakit? daddy nga nun si patrick eh. hehe. ask him pa!
7) i keep a diary.
- i'm used to opening up to people, but i choose on who i should confide. if those people are not around, i'm much comfortable writing my thoughts rather than keeping it to myself or telling them to others.
8) i own a number of notebooks of poetry.
- i write poetry! and because of that, marami na akong nabiling notebook. haha! i guess i have 5-7 notebooks already.
9) i'm sociable, i'm friendly, but i don't want to "be friendly" to people first.
- i'm really friendly. but i'm shy rin. di ako sanay na ako ung gagawa ng "first move" sa friendship. that's where my shyness kicks in. hehe. but when i become your friend, i'm your friend till the end. :)
10) i keep secrets. and when i say "secret", i literally and seriously mean that i'll keep it a secret.
- some people kasi, sometimes nadudulas sila. not knowing na nasasabi nila secrets ng iba. ako naman hindi. when i say "i'll keep it a secret", i will really do. pag di ko na kaya itago, sasabihin ko na lang dun sa nagsabi sakin. haha.
11) i'd pick skirts and shorts over jeans any day!
- i'm much comfortable in them. pag walang skirts or shorts, dress! pag wala ung 3, dun lang ako magj-jeans. hehe.
12) i don't study a day before a quiz in math.
- i dunno why. naba-blangko ako eh.
13) i want to be alone.
- pag gabi, i just sit on my bed, watch tv/listen to the radio/do my hw and close the door.
14) i seldom have crushes/get infatuated, but when i fall in love, i fall deeply.
- when im in love, i don't get infatuated with anyone. it's not bad naman to get infatuated when in love, kasi infatuation lang un, dba? pero ewan. hanggang "ok, cute/hot/gwapo siya." ganyan lang ako. haha.
15) i know when something is wrong, and when it is, i usually know that i'm right.
- i hate it when that time comes and i know that something's wrong sa loved ones ko. i worry ALOT about them. i treasure them deeply.
ok. that's 15. the last time, (ung kay yanna) 6 lang ata. ngayon nadagdagan ng 9. haha! i'll be tagging beachbabe mackee, ninang thea, yanna, jetjet and mau.ü
Labels: boybud, school, tagged
Wednesday, March 21, 2007,:
tomorrow, everything will change after 12nn. we won't be called "III-AGATHA" anymore. we'll go our separate ways for the meantime. magkikita uli kami sa june pa. grabe! di ko inakala na mamimiss ko ang Agatha. ngayon pa nga lang eh, nalulungkot na ako. i remember nung first day, i thought our class wouldn't be as fun as the class i had when i was in 2nd yr. masyado kong kiriticize ung section ko. i didn't think that i'd be having a blast hanging out with them! grabe... thinking about tomorrow is really saddening. di ko inakala na magiging close ako sa kanila.. :( kahit na maraming kalokohan section namin, kahit na kung sinu-sinong coordinator, and discipline officer, ang vice principal, at ung mismong principal na ung dumadalaw samin tuwing may nagagawa kaming kalokohan, mahal ko sila lahat! ang dami naming pinagdaanan nung january.. lahat na yata ng kamalasan sa mundo binagsak samin.. everyday kaming may kaso, di nawala ung stealing, galit samin si Ms. Jo, at puro sakit na lang ng ulo araw-araw. but, we made it through every day. mamimiss ko talaga lahat ng kaingayan ng class.. yung mga hirit nila... ung mga jokes nila.. kahit nakakainis ung mga guys namin., mamimiss ko talaga silang lahat! now, all we could do is do good in our last trigonometry exam and make the best out of last day... :(
grabe.. ano kaya mangyayari bukas? sabi kasi ni marty dito na lang daw kami sa bahay mags-stay. haii.. i really can't understand him.. masyado syang magulo! lately, he's been communicating with me.. natatakot ako na pagdating ng june, magbago nanaman siya.. haii.. by that time, im pretty sure na tanggap ko na ang lahat..... pero right now, i STILL have to clear things up in my mind.. yup, my spongebob is there to help me get through things pero, i still need marty to let me know the things that made my life complicated... :(
haii.. si joshua kaya makakausap ko pa? naisip ko lang. kasi one whole year na kaming nagdededmahan.. daig ko pa talaga lahat ng nakaaway niya! hehe.. i may be laughing about it pero, i admit, i miss my boybud.. nakakapanghinayang lang talaga ung friendship namin..
now, another chapter in my life has ended. after tomorrow, i am no long a junior in high school.. in a couple of months, seniors na kaming lahat.. time flies really fast.. i just hope everything, and everyone can cope up with it... especially, me..
Labels: boybud, complicated, last day, school, tomorrow
