i've never really known what it feels like to fail. i've always been known as "the smart girl" or the intelligent one of my batch. now, i can't face them and say i failed.

Labels: bloggie, class, college, dlsu, exam, hurt, life

it's been awhile since i've posted another bloggie. let's just say my being busy and lazy got the best out of me :))

soo, i read my past entries here and i admit, they're all pathetic. well, i just needed to let out things and rant, but i didn't realize how bad i had it :| i'm glad i've let it all go. :)

tomorrow is the said "judgement day" in DLSU. yess, our course card distribution day has finally arrived, and i'm not even excited about it. :\ intecal has got me worried ever since i was absent on our second quiz 'caue i was in the hospital getting my bp checked. :| apparently, at that time, my heart rate was way too high that they had to use ECG (i think?). i wasn't ALLOWED to fail any of the quizzed i've got left. but lo and behold, i had to fail one :| and since i forgot to pass my med certificate to the vice dean, my missed quiz was recorded as 0. :|

i hope and i pray that i would atleast get a 1.0.
i know i'm not worthy of anything higher than that. :|

Labels: bloggie, class, college, dlsu, dreams, exam, life, random, school, sick

my blockmates and i should really stop labeling the weeks of this term as "hell weeks". it should be "hell term" :)).

finals are coming up. :\ i'm ready for solimen, kinda ready for diffcal, but i'm NOT yet ready for anageom. because of my very high last quiz (98/100, baby!(: hehe.) i just need about less than 30 points in the finals. i'm aiming to perfect it. yeaa. haha. taas ng pangarap eh :))

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saw him today. :\
didn't really much notice him.
well, i knew he was there.
but i didn't look at him,
nor waved at him,
nor smiled at him.
i just pretended that i didn't see him. :\
i kinda knew he saw me. :\
i felt it.
i knew it.
i know him.
and...
it hurts :\

i hate it. :|

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anyhoo, needs a lot of studying hours :))
wish me luck for my finals!:)

Labels: babybear, bloggie, class, college, complicated, dlsu, escapades, hurt, life, miss, promises, random, why

it feels so right, yet so wrong.

i've been having butterflies in my tummy. yea, i know. this is that feeling that i've never felt in years. the last time i felt this way was when M and I were together pa. which was more than a couple of years ago.

the thing is. i know it's wrong. and i'm not yet sure of what "this" is.

is this the little thing they call love? or infatuation?


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on the uglier side of things. this week is hell week for the block. :\

guys, wish me luck this wednesday. i'm gonna need a whole lot of it!
one word: ANAGEOM

i DON'T want to repeat that friggin' subject :\

Labels: bloggie, class, college, complicated, confessions, dlsu, friends, holding on, letting go, life, love, random, selfish, truth, why

ok. term started na. hahaha. but i haven't met all of my profs yet.

here are the subjects i've been to:
- FILDLAR
- ANAGEOM
- DIFFCAL
- CHEMONE
- LBYCH11

the subjects that i went to, but the prof didn't show up:
- ENGLRES
- SOLIMEN

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yea. second term. it's been fun. hahaha. less homeworks pa kasi. and besides, it's the usual intro's again. but when you see my schedule, it's more flexible than the one i had last term. oh, just exclude monday. hahaha. 3 maths and chemistry in one day with just a 40-minute break, how's that to start your every week? XD

Labels: bloggie, class, college, random

okay, i started my review classes na. aminin ko, i don't want to go! pero syempre, sayang naman ung bayad ng mom ko dun dba? at least i only have to attend its 17 days (68 hours lang kasi ako dun..) after may 29, im free once again!

i started yesterday. grabe ah! 4-long hours of diagnostic test without (i repeat -- without!) any breaks. T_T and as expected, i didn't know anyone there. most of the students there are from lsgh, and spcp. para akong nawawala, ako lang ung nag-iisang taga-parañaque (ata). pero di ako sure dun. i haven't been talking to anyone besides my seatmate, who i still don't know the name. (sorry! ^_^)

as in pag andun ako, laging loner AND taray mode. o dba? kaya niyo un? ako kaya ko! haha. as in wala akong kinakausap. well, let's re-phrase that. wala akong kinakausap na ako ung unang magsasalita. :) it's a thing. it's hard to change it. i'm not as social as my friends but i am social. :D

2 days down, 15 days to go! phew! matagal-tagal pa ito. and to think na-melt na ata ang brain ko 'cause math kami this week. and i think everyday may 2 take home quizzes and worksheets. T_T.

kaya ko ba ito? :(

Labels: class, lsc

""if you two are meant to be,"
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a poet on the loose.
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the name's bianca. :) been living for 17 years now and a college frosh. currently in dlsu-m taking up bs ece :| a friend to all, an enemy to none. i am artsy in my own right. poems are my "thing". and i live by honesty. liars are off-limits here. got that? :)

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