Childhood days;

Friday, January 30, 2009,:

why do i have to find out everything when it has all ended? do i really deserve to know? or do i just deserve to get hurt 'cause that's what i have done to him in the past? :[

let's put a new addition to the lies ~~my ex-boyfriend~~ has told me.

we [someone close to us and i] were talking some minutes ago. he was asking for an advice 'cause - again - his girlfriend and him are in a disagreement. he said "alam mo, highschool life ko parang highschool life lang ni [put my ex's name here], nung third year, may prom date, nung fourth year wala." i asked him to elaborate and he said, my ex's prom date was supposed to be his date during his grad ball. i asked, "eh dba niligawan niya ung girl from MC?"

and this was what the guy told me, "yup, he did. pero di natuloy kasi NAGPUNTA SA STATES UNG GIRL KAYA HINDI NAGING SILA...."

if i remember correctly, he told me (when he went back to me), that he stopped courting her 'cause he was COMPARING HER TO ME. i'm not being boastful or cocky. he told me everytime he talks to her, he wonders why she isn't makulit like me. he wonders why she's not much into texting like me. why she is not as sweet as me.

and now, now that i am slowly letting go, suddenly i find that out? isn't that a bit unfair, on my part? :[

so, he just came back to me 'cause she migrated to the States. was i supposed to be his ~~rebound girl~~? all the while, i regret not choosing him, and then this? :[

then again, i really don't know the truth. i can't judge him or conclude anything until i get the chance to talk to him.

but, then again, will THAT ever happen?

Labels: babybear, bloggie, broken, college, complicated, confessions, confusion, end, hurt, letting go, life, ouch, random, selfish, time, truth, why

Thursday, March 22, 2007,:

Goodbyes are hard to say. That's why I prefer saying "see you later!" Last exam namin kanina. Trigo pa! nag-iisa. haha! after i finished answering, i looked if anybody else were done. ako palang pala! ahaha. since i brought my fone to school, nagbabasa lang ako ng messages. syempre patago! mamaya last day na nga lang ma-confiscate pa fone ko! haha. bigla nalang nagtext si jepoi, tas si pamB, tas si jk. hehe. looking around, i start to wonder, in a matter of hours, we'll go our separate ways. like what i've said in my previous entry, we're not going to be called "iii - agatha" anymore. next school year, some of us may be classmates, pero not all. thinking about it, 4th yr na pala kami next year! ang bilis ng panahon, noh?

naghabol na kami ng requirements kanina since tinatamad kami lahat bumalik bukas para magpa-sign ng clearance. buti nalang natapos ko ung akin!Ü

haiii.... pero, when it was time to say goodbye, napag-ayos ni Ms. Jo sina Rap pati si Jepoi (di ko lang alam kung talagang ok na sila.. hehe..) some of us were emotional, some of us were happy kasi summer na. pero ako? ewan ko lang. another school year has ended pero deadmahan pa rin kami ni joshua. todo-iwas siya sakin. he glances at me. but he never talks to me.

i'm gonna miss my third year!Ü especially yung section ko.. i love you iii-agatha!!

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Labels: end, exam, school, year