all those days attending
summer class instead of
actually enjoying my summer vacation paid off...
I PASSED INTECAL!anyway, i was supposed to go to the gym today, i got lasy that's why i wasn't able to. FF people kept on bugging me though. one in ortigas, the other in megamall (yes, i know megamall is in ortigas, but what can i do? they're different branches.xD) so, i guess i'll go there this friday or saturday :)
i'm
NOT supposed to feel this way.
who is
HE, anyway?
it isn't as if we're
close.
we
barely know each other.
and yet.
i'm
jealous.
the sad part is...
i don't have the right to feel this way :\
Labels: bloggie, college, confessions
today, my summer classes started officially. i didn't know that some of my friends enrolled in the same class i did (like
Boogie,
Mia, and
Benjie) but at least i've got some people to talk to, right? :)
never knew summer classes would be
fast-paced. our prof discussed the lessons that i had to learn in
a week last term, in
one friggin' day! i hate to admit it, if i only studied well in intecal last term, i wouldn't have been stuck in manila trying to pass it again.:| and i would be going to the province witnessing
Kuya Geepee's wedding on may 4 as one of the
bridesmaids.
and because i was
stupid enough to fail it -
unintentionally - and was stupid enough not to pass my med certificate, i'll be left in Manila, with only Ate Daday with me, while
my parents and
my sister goes off to Romblon, head to the
beach and the wedding.
ugh.
this is
NOT my kind of summer. :|
Labels: anger, bloggie, college, dlsu, escapades, gimik, life, random, summer, vacation, why
Wednesday, April 22, 2009,:
i've never really known what it feels like to fail. i've always been known as "the smart girl" or the intelligent one of my batch. now, i can't face them and say i failed.
Labels: bloggie, class, college, dlsu, exam, hurt, life
it's been
awhile since i've posted another bloggie. let's just say my being
busy and
lazy got the best out of me :))
soo, i read my past entries here and i admit, they're all
pathetic. well, i just needed to let out things and rant, but i didn't realize how bad i had it :| i'm glad i've
let it all go. :)
tomorrow is the said "
judgement day" in DLSU. yess, our
course card distribution day has finally arrived, and i'm not even excited about it. :\
intecal has got me worried ever since i was absent on our second quiz 'caue i was in the hospital getting my bp checked. :| apparently, at that time, my heart rate was way too high that they had to use ECG (i think?). i wasn't
ALLOWED to
fail any of the quizzed i've got left. but lo and behold, i had to fail one :| and since i forgot to pass my med certificate to the vice dean, my missed quiz was recorded as 0. :|
i
hope and i
pray that i would
atleast get a
1.0.
i know i'm not
worthy of anything higher than that. :|
Labels: bloggie, class, college, dlsu, dreams, exam, life, random, school, sick
Wednesday, February 11, 2009,:
on this day, three years ago
you were here beside me..
on this day, three years ago..
our faces with smiles, both of us were happy.
but that was three years ago
it seems like yesterday
but it happened too long ago
i wish you could've stayed
-------
he turns 19.
on this day three years ago,
he spent it with me.
who would've thought
that after three years
i would be able to greet him face to face.
happy birthday, m!(:
ily, imy.
Labels: babybear, bloggie, change, dlsu, life, nostalgia, random, year
Friday, January 30, 2009,:
why do i have to find out everything when it has all ended? do i really deserve to know? or do i just deserve to get hurt 'cause that's what i have done to him in the past? :[
let's put a new addition to the
lies my ex-boyfriend has told me.
we [someone close to
us and i] were talking some minutes ago. he was asking for an advice 'cause - again - his girlfriend and him are in a disagreement. he said
"alam mo, highschool life ko parang highschool life lang ni [put my ex's name here],
nung third year, may prom date, nung fourth year wala." i asked him to elaborate and he said, my ex's prom date was supposed to be his date during his grad ball. i asked,
"eh dba niligawan niya ung girl from MC?"and this was what the guy told me,
"yup, he did. pero di natuloy kasi NAGPUNTA SA STATES UNG GIRL KAYA HINDI NAGING SILA...."
if i remember correctly, he told me (when he went back to me), that
he stopped courting her 'cause he was COMPARING HER TO ME. i'm not being boastful or cocky. he told me everytime he talks to her, he wonders why she isn't
makulit like me. he wonders why she's not much into texting like me. why she is not as sweet as me.
and now, now that i am
slowly letting go, suddenly i find that out? isn't that a bit unfair, on my part? :[
so, he just came back to me 'cause
she migrated to the States. was i supposed to be his
rebound girl? all the while, i regret not choosing him, and then this? :[
then again, i really don't know the truth. i can't judge him or conclude anything until i get the chance to talk to him.
but, then again, will
THAT ever happen?
Labels: babybear, bloggie, broken, college, complicated, confessions, confusion, end, hurt, letting go, life, ouch, random, selfish, time, truth, why